Monday, November 26, 2012

What is wrong with me?!

I have an IRL friend who TTCd for about a year before taking 3 months off. She and her husband took time off because her sister is getting married in April and she couldn't risk getting pregnant and being too pregnant to attend the wedding.

So they started TTCing again in September. She got pregnant in October and had her 6 week ultrasound today.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME that I secretly with that she had received bad news at the ultrasound. I know I don't truly mean that thought, but it sits with me and I hate myself for it.

She tells me she is measuring at 6w5d when she should be at 7w5d (she ovulated late) and I find myself hoping that means she'll miscarry.

She has another ultrasound on 12/28 and I wonder whether that'll bring bad news.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! I hate myself right now. SO SO SO much.